McFriends – Chapter 38 (Finale)

Chapter 38

“All the years you have waited for them to “make it up to you” and all the energy you expended trying to make them change … kept the old wounds from healing and gave pain from the past free rein to shape and even damage your life. And still they may not have changed. Nothing you have done has made them change. Indeed, they may never change. Inner peace is found by changing yourself, not the people who hurt you.”

~ Lewis B. Smedes

 The Art of Forgiving: When You Need To Forgive And Don’t Know How


   Claire pondered as she walked.  Is it possible to know someone, even be her friend for a while, and still miss the real person – the inner essence that makes a woman who she really is?  If that inner essence is missed, whose fault is it?  The one who hides, or the one who stops looking? 

Maybe it’s no one’s fault.  Maybe we’re all unanswered riddles.  Maybe unresolved enigmas are part and parcel of our womanly essence, who we are at our core.  Maybe there’s only One who will ever know us, understand us as deeply as we desire.

Out for a walk a year post-mortem, Claire meandered past the conference room where a friendship died.  The low building rose out of the quiet morning like a tombstone.  A gray metallic taste filled her mouth, soured her stomach.  She paused briefly but didn’t stop. 

Is it dead. 

The question rose and fell with the breeze, all lilac and sage.  Claire Sinclair couldn’t not know the answer.  She let out a gentle sigh, gave a soft shake of her curls.  She looked up and ahead.  And kept marching.


(Or a new beginning?)



Up next week:  a discussion of “Proverbs 31.”  It’s not what you think.  Stay tuned.


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